For me there’s no greater pleasure in life than human interaction. For the first in a long time, I felt fairly comfortable sitting in a room with strangers and interacting with them on so many levels. I was at ease in asserting myself in moments of silence and awkwardness as well orchestrating topical discussion. I felt comfortable making a few jokes and was able to speak openly about some of my dilemmas. It’s very different from sitting behind a computer screen and trying to communicate with another person online because you never know if you have their full attention or if they are even interested in responding to you.
Despite the nature of this meeting, I came out feeling positive about myself and it showed throughout the evening as my confidence grew with every word I uttered. I suspect that a cup of coffee in the interval helped proceedings as well.
So that’s what it feels like, that feeling of energy and enthusiasm that comes with interacting in a social environment. My obsessive nature knows that I need, crave and long to possess its everlasting sources. I hope that my endeavours will lead me to its boundless beginnings.
Thank you for reading and I hope you find your feel-good factor should it ever become misplaced.
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